I'm 22. I'm 4 classes away from graduating with a degree in business finance. I'm on the finance board for the civil air patrol, the official auxiliary of the air force. I'm teaching myself web design and programming. I have a work/study desk job at Amazon. A buddy of mine went on a ten day hiking trip and put me in charge of his trucking business in his absence and he's really impressed with my performance and seems interested in continuing our professional relationship. I'm getting sober. I work out and read every day...and I'm fucking miserable. Maybe part of it is corona isolation and everybody going home for the summer and me having so many obligations in my college town. I don't know what it is, but this is the worst I've felt in a while. My biggest contact is my room mate who acts friendly with me, but I get the vibe he hates me. I feel like he's constantly trying to plant negative thoughts in my head. The obvious solution is to stop hanging out with him, but it's him or isolation 5 days out of the week if you don't count work and CAP.is depression part of success? Is it really this lonely at the top or some shit. I don't even consider myself at the top. If I'm unhappy now, was my life better partying? Are these growing pains? Is it like that bible quote, "Go by the narrow gate, for wide is the gate that leads to destruction."? I hope this isn't coming off as a humble brag, I really want some likeminded people to give me guidance. I sigh my way through every day checking the boxes on my obligations and my habits and the 15 year old in me is constantly telling me to buy an ounce and play some video games, but something keeps stopping me see hubwealthy.com/wealthy
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